Saturday, December 27, 2008

Bright Tomorrows

"It is in dreaming the greatest dreams...

seeking the highest goals...

that we build the brightest tomorrows.


[Tomorrows are only todays
waiting to happen].

SO DANCE!

The beat of a heart
The fall of a sigh
The rise of a prayer—

The flash of a star
Through limitless sky
The dreams that we dare.

[CELBRATE LIFE]"

-No Limits But the Sky

Friday, December 26, 2008

クリスマス and Thoughts on the Future

Christmas 2008 was a wonderful event. It was the most relaxing Christmas I experienced in several years. Maybe it's because I am no longer an adolescent. Maybe it's because of the economic crisis. Maybe it's simply because I have nothing to stress over. Everything seemed so much brighter this year. Everything was valued so much more than in previous years. My family is not really suffering right now, but we certainly don't take anything for granted anymore. We were all grateful for what he had yesterday. Never before had Christmas held so much meaning to me. I was finally able to remember the true meaning of Christmas.

It amazed me to hear that the majority of Japanese people celebrate Christmas. Less than one percent of the population is Christian, so how could that be true? Then I remembered: sometimes we overlook the spirit of Christmas; that is, the spirit of giving. It made sense once I made that connection. In Japan, Christmas is not as much of a family holiday as it is here in the United States. It is celebrated more among close friends. It is centered around the spirit of giving. There exists very little religious influence on the holiday. I think that knowing this played a role in the significance of Christmas 2008.

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I've been thinking a lot about the future recently. I've been wondering what will happen once I leave for Kansai Gaidai. I know that everyone will continue on with their normal lives. I know that I'll continue my journey to self-discovery. I know that my heart will remain back here with all of my friends, but a piece of it will become a part of Japan, where it will forever stay.

So, what happens after that?

I spoke to my mother at the beginning of this break about my uncertainties for the future. My program adviser, Danielle Leonard, had told me that, looking back on her 20s, she remembers having a need to maintain control over everything. Her friends concur. I told my mother about this. She also concurred. Never have I felt so uncertain about my future. I told this to her. Never have I felt so "plan-less." I told this to her. Never have I been in a situation lacking so much predictability. I told this to her. I questioned what would happen when I return home. I questioned whether I'd be able to graduate on time. I questioned whether I'd return home to the same friends I'd left. I questioned whether I'd see the majority of them again. I felt frightened as I realized that I have limited control over the next four to six months. As a twenty-year-old, that can be disheartening. Still, nothing stands in my way.

My home will not change
But I shall follow
The call of my heart
And soul.

Still, keep in mind
One important thing:
I will always be with you...

[Standing with honor
Stoic stone pillars so strong
Rising at your sight]

And at mine...

メリークリスマス around the world!

Tuesday, December 16, 2008

Angels on the Moon

Do you dream , that the world will know your name?
So tell me your name
Do you care, about all the little things or anything at all?
I wanna feel, all the chemicals inside I wanna feel
I want a sunburn, just to know that I'm alive...To know I'm alive

Don't tell me if I'm dying, cause I don't wanna know
If I can't see the sun, maybe I should go
Don't wake me cause I'm dreaming, of angels on the moon
Where everyone you know, never leaves too soon

Do you believe, in the day that you were born?
Tell me, do you believe?
Do you know, that every day's the first of the rest of your life?

Don't tell me if I'm dying, cause I don't wanna know
If I can't see the sun, maybe I should go
Don't wake me cause I'm dreaming, of angels on the moon
Where everyone you know, never leaves too soon

This is to one last day in the shadows
And to know a brother's love
This is to New York City angels
And the rivers of our blood
This is to all of us, to all of us

So don't tell me if I'm dying, cause I don't wanna know
If I can't see the sun, maybe I should go
Don't wake me cause I'm dreaming, of angels on the moon
Where everyone you know, never leaves too soon

Yeah, you can tell me all your thoughts about the stars that fill polluted skies
And show me where you run to when no one's left to take your side
But don't tell me where the road ends
Cause I just don't wanna know
No I don't wanna know

[Don't tell me if I'm dying
Don't tell me if I'm dying]

-Thriving Ivory

Thursday, December 11, 2008

Standing Corrected

Because there was no irony to yesterday. Just the reality of life.

So let's take it from here...

Wednesday, December 10, 2008

The Internalization of Living

"If I kept my cats inside instead of letting them outside to set their own boundaries, I might guarantee that they won't be runover or stolen or accidentally killed by a hunter, but how would they be able to really live their lives? I keep the same mindset for myself. If I closed myself off from everyone, I might guarantee that I won't be taken advantage of or hurt, but then how would I be able to really live my life?" -DL

If I kept my heart closed, how would I be able to experience the trials of life? If I didn't engage myself in other's lives, how would I be able to feel? If I didn't lend myself to others, how would I be able to reach out? If I became too independent, how would I find joy in the company of others? If I became too dependent, how would I learn and grow?

So my journey continues. I'm required to break structured routine. I'm frightened and nervous, but I'm embracing my future.

My surroundings are alive and vibrant, but in all of the commotion, I have found inner peace. I am content to a level of which I haven't experienced in a while. Perhaps there's irony in this considering that today is so gloomy.

Still, that's life.

Sunday, December 7, 2008

Rebuilding

Sometimes what we believe to be true and what is true are polar opposites. We can be lead astray by our own misconceptions and insecurities. Sometimes, it's the things we find the most comfort in that lead us astray.

[Based on American Airlines flight 1420]

It was approaching midnight in New York as Sky America flight 2000 was nearing John F. Kennedy International Airport (KJFK) on a red-eye flight from Los Angeles. A strong line of thunderstorms was closing in on the airport, but the crew on board flight 2000 was determined to arrive on-time and meet the company's standards for resting-hours before their next flight at 9:00am.

The Boeing 757-200, manufactured in 1998, had just undergone a complete cabin upgrade. Spacious new seats were available in all classes, and a new in-flight entertainment system was accessible for all passengers. The wings had also been retrofitted with winglets, which made the aircraft more aerodymanic and fuel-efficient.

198 passengers were on board. The majority of the passengers were holiday travelers returning home to the East Coast following the July 4th holiday. First class was occupied by business travelers and frequent-flyers. Seven crewmembers were also on board, including the pilot, co-pilot, and five flight attendants.

The line of thunderstorms was gaining intensity as flight 2000 was cleared to descend to 3,500 feet and maintain a heading of 270 degrees. Continuous lightning was visible to both the pilot and co-pilot, and some passengers started feeling anxious as the airplane began to encounter severe turbulence.

A Severe Thunderstorm Warning was issued as flight 2000 was cleared for the ILS approach to runway 31L at KJFK. Windshear warnings were issued for all major Port Authority airports, but the crew on board flight 2000 elected to continue their approach into KJFK. Many passengers were feeling sick as the aircraft approached the runway 31L threshold.

As the aircraft crossed the threshold, the wings rocked briefly and the aircraft pitched 10 degrees nose-up. Without warning, the aircraft dropped 300 feet onto runway 31L. The violent impact sheared the right main landing-gear off and tore the number two engine free of the wing. An explosion occurred on the outboard section of the right wing as the aircraft skidded down the runway. The fire quickly spread into the mid-section of the cabin.

Within moments, passengers sitting in that section of the cabin were engulfed in flames. The aircraft continued to skid until it departed the right side of the runway and came to a rest inverted. The vertical stabilizer had been torn off and most of the right wing was missing. The left wing remained intact except for the winglet, which had been torn off. The nose-gear had also been torn off. The cockpit had been crushed when the aircraft struck two airport vehicles. Both the pilot and copilot did not survive.

The aircraft was rocked by two explosions after coming to a stop. Both explosions occurred around the center of the fuselage. The fire from all three explosions began to spread throughout the remainder of the fuselage, which was now in three pieces. Passengers and crewmembers in the forward section of the aircraft were able to escape quickly. Some passengers were uninjured while others suffered from large cuts and abrasions.

At this point, John F. Kennedy International Airport had been completely shut down, with all inbound air traffic diverted to major airports within a 500 mile radius. Airport rescue teams were dispatched moments after the crash. Upon arriving at the crash site, they were met by passengers who had escaped the aircraft. Some survivors were trying to re-enter the burning fuselage in order to rescue trapped passengers.

Many passengers remained trapped inside the aircraft as it continued to burn. The center of the fuselage above the wings was fully engulfed in flames. No survivors were sitting in this section. The back of the fuselage had also separated, allowing some passengers to escape. Some passengers were pinned between seats. Some had been thrown from the aircraft.

In total, 57 passengers and three crewmembers (pilot, copilot and a flight attendant) perished in the crash. The survivors of flight 2000 were seen as heroes. Around one month later, a ceremony was held honoring the survivors and the victims. Many had been loyal customers of Sky America for decades. Everyone had to rebuild.

Sky America, Inc.

The survivors.

The victims' family members.

John F. Kennedy International Airport.

The general public.

The public lost trust in the airlines. Sky America, Inc. took a huge hit. Families of the victims had to settle all legal issues. The survivors had to go through months of therapy and rehabilitation.

Eventually, everyone rebuilt. Trust was regained. Nervous fliers took to the skies again. Sky America, Inc. reestablished it's reputation. John F. Kennedy International Airport returned to normal operations.

To commemorate the victims of the crash, flight number 2000 was retired from Sky America flights.

While it may have been an extreme example, it gets a point across. While trust may be lost, it can be rebuilt, but all parties involved must work together.

[Together we shall rebuild]

Thursday, December 4, 2008

静かな

As the semester is winding down, everything is picking up. I am confident that this is a rule of life. For every transition that I have gone through, the previous chapter has gone out with a bang while the new chapter has eased in peacefully.

[I'm standing on the doorstep of a new chapter. I'm looking through the glass. It's a little misty, but I can see a bright room with many windows. Promise and happiness greet me. Comfort rests in the background. There's satisfaction at one end of the room and a strong sense of achievement at the other. Trust and confidence lead me in. Wisdom stands at the center with arms wide open. Opportunity waits at each window.]

Love and respect line the walls.

I quietly enter. My heart can finally rest. My mind can finally find peace.

俳句 rests on the door:

Standing with honor
Stoic stone pillars so strong
Rising at your sight

In defiance of the laws of physics, energy is created. The flame of passion is rekindled. All senses are heightened. Darkness and sorrow retreat to the farthest corners of the world. The love of life is reborn.

That I am grateful for. And also for you.

Tranquil. 静かな。

And a new chapter begins...